Day Thirty-Three through Thirty-Seven

Life is funny. We come up with things we really really want to do for ourselves and yet, we find reasons why we don't have time or don't want to do them. I'm speaking for myself here. I love the feeling of expressing all the things that I'm thankful for on a daily basis. I love looking for those things as I go through my day. I really changes a lot of things about life when you spend the majority of it being thankful for each and every thing around you and all the things that happen to you, good or "bad".

I'm not really sure why this has been such a hard thing for me to keep up on lately and why I've come up with so many things that I've felt at the time were more important than expressing thanks. What am I trying to say? Not really sure. I'm just saying is all. Anyways, no more promises to do better. No more apologies. I will express my thankfulness when I'm compelled to do so. Hopefully that continues to be on a daily basis. I've decided that I've given my thankfulness too much structure. I think that's the problem with a lot of other things in my life too- too much structure. Thankfulness is love, and trying to put structure to love is like trying to (insert your own clever phrase here). For that matter, life is love, and too much structure reduces quality of life.

So this blog will remain. It will continue. It will just lack structure. Don't cry. I'm not. Life will be OK.

With all that being said, here are the things I can remember being thankful for this week:

I'm thankful for water as it eventually helps me get rid of headaches. Not to mention all the other wonderfully beneficial properties as well.

I'm thankful to be learning so much from just my first Photoshop tutorial. It's crazy how much that program really does if you just learn even a little about it.

I'm thankful that I've felt so optimistic over the last while. There have been a lot of challenges coming about lately and they would sure be hard to handle if I was pessimistic about them.

I'm thankful that I stumbled back upon listening to VAST. What a great band. Yes. True. Click the link. Give 'em a listen. Seriously, good. I'm pretty sure we're going to see them on May 23rd - YIPPEE!

I'm also thankful for VAST radio on Pandora. I've found some other purdy dang killer artists on there as well. Some of my favorites: Kasabian, Paradise Lost and Kent.

I'm thankful for Prosperity Paradigm. Really great book so far and I only just started chapter 2. I'm unbelievably excited to continue reading. It's crazy, this guy almost completely paraphrases my religion post from Cognitive Hallucinations, but at the same time goes into much more detail behind it. VERY interesting stuff. Plus, he unites the concepts of spirituality with money, abundance, prosperity, health etc. Now, to make the time to continue reading.....

I'm thankful that I sold 2 cars on Wednesday. They were both really easy deals, too. I will be very thankful when all my deals start to go that way every day *wink, wink to the universe*

I'm thankful that I had enough time after sales meeting on Thursday to spend some time drawing my lovely Mexican Wrestler before I had to return to work.

I'm thankful that Angelo, the repo man was such a nice guy. He even gave me a bag to put all my stuff in before he took away my Maxima. He really seemed to be sincere in feeling bad for me, which was nice. But now I don't want any one else feeling bad. Because I don't. Angelo did the job for everyone. Good work Angelo.

I'm thankful that Nissan finally took my Maxima. It's definitely a shocker and a wake up call. I'm thinking I must have needed that pretty bad.

I'm thankful that following my roughly 2 hour period of somberness after the Maxima was gone, I was over it, and happy and thankful and excited and relieved and positive. What a grand new adventure I have in store!

I'm thankful that Troy knows as much as he does about bankruptcy and collections and what not. I'm especially thankful that he was so willing to sit and help talk through things with me and give me advice.

I'm thankful that the people I work for do care enough about me to be concerned. It sucks being the pitty person when you don't really feel bad about something yourself, but I'm glad they care.

I'm thankful that Ricardo gave me a ride home.

I'm also thankful that Ricardo bought me a chicken fajita burito and a Pepsi from Albertos to make me "feel better". I guess it worked because I was hungry and my stomach felt better after I ate. I really hope people stop thinking that I should be distraught very soon.

I'm thankful that Meisha and I were able to have a calm, collected conversation regarding our financial situation. I'm also thankful that Meisha has been so supportive of me, through everything. This will be quite the challenge and her positivity and willingness to accept responsibility and consequences continues to be an inspiration to me.

I'm thankful that Dallin called and we were able to work out a plan for tomorrow. We get to go to Salt Lake after all! Woo hoo!

I'm thankful that Meisha and I get to take the same bus to work in the morning. It's weird, I'm actually looking forward to that.

I'm thankful that I was able to fix the wind noise on the Tiburon I sold. If I couldn't it would have been a pain in the ass and quite complicated.

I'm thankful that we watched X Games while eating lunch instead of the stupid MTV dating shows that are usually on.

I'm thankful that I'm going to be able to get off work by 3 tomorrow so that we can make it to Salt Lake in time. It will be nice working such a short day. It's been a while since that's happened.

I'm thankful for my current attitude about my thankful blog.

I'm thankful for my current attitude about life.

That's it. Thanks for reading. May your day be filled with .... um .... whatever you want it to be full of. If you're not sure what you want it to be full of, then may it be filled with the delicious filling from the fantastically tasty eclairs from Harmon's that I am also very thankful for.