Day Fitfy through Fifty Six

I find myself having a hard time writing anything here today, but I feel the need to anyways. I feel generally positive about things, but can't pick out much of anything specific to be be thankful for. Some of the highlights in the last few days have been-

Good music. I love coming back across an album or a song I haven't listened to in a while. I love rediscovering the small things about music that cause it to play such a big part in my life. I've really enjoyed setting my life to a soundtrack lately. A lonely bus ride listening to Beautiful People and other various Manson creations. A high speed morning bike ride through the tunnel under the freeway with Mindless Self Indulgence blaring. Answering emails to The Mars Volta. A late night grocery store bike run with Things Falling Apart. A most of the day at work drawing session with Sleeping With Ghosts on repeat. Time spent with Meisha, Explosions in the Sky in the background. I love music.

Creative release. I'm really enjoying this whole web design thing. I've got opportunities to design sites from all different parts of life. From a tree business and farm website, to a photographer's website, to a lotion and skin care website, to possibly an "Erotic Stimulus Package" website and much more. I like trying to tap into each world and figuring what a successful part of that world would look like when mixed with my own personal art and style.

Photoshop. I guess this should still fit in creative release, but PS is really a beast of it's own. I've learned so much and so little all at the same time. I love the fact that I can get caught up in picture and spend half the day on it without a pinch of boredom. It doesn't feel tedious, and I love that. I love details and can't wait to be able to learn more so that I can put even more detail into what I create.

Biking. I'm really starting to see this whole repossion ordeal as a blessing and not just another obstacle to overcome. I really enjoy biking. There are definitely times when a car is quite needed and maybe someday I'll get one for those reasons, but I think that if I do, I'll continue to bike as much as possible.

Meisha. Some days I really wonder why she puts up with me. I know I've said it so many times before, but I really appreciate her patience. I treasure every hug, every kiss. I love it when she just lays her head on me, whether it's because she just wants to be close or because she's just exhausted or sick, it doesn't matter. I love her sense of humor, especially when she's "goofy tired". I love and appreciate her more and more every day.

Money. That might sound "greedy", but I figure that I must appreciate money in order to have more of it show up in my life. It's been nice to have enough money to at least stay current on a few bills and buy groceries when needed.

Friends. Even if I don't want it, I have friends who are willing to be there for me. Whether it's just giving me a ride somewhere every now and then, or just offering a ride or a car, or spending an entire Sunday helping me move all my stuff from a garage to a storage unit, or being kind enough to let me fill up a third of a 3 car garage with my stuff for a year, or just someone to talk to or share thoughts with. I have friends who are there for me.

Life. I'm just happy to be here, now. I don't spend enough time realizing that. Life is good. As long as we want it to be.

Day Forty-Four through Forty-9

Why is the number 4 spelled F-O-U-R and the number 40 spelled F-O-R-T-Y? Are really just so lazy that we can't add a U to 40? Just a wonderment I guess.

So life continues to roll along and I continue to be thankful. Life is OK.

I'm thankful that Meisha and I had something to do on Friday night. Even if it wasn't the ideal date night. I really hope we can figure out how to take some dance classes really soon. That would have been ideal, but dinner and Wii works.

I'm thankful that Meisha was cool about dinner and Wii for a "date" night. I know it's not her ideal and I appreciate her willingness to be happy about it and participate.

I'm thankful I had another 2 car Saturday (kind of, still waiting for an approval on one).

I'm thankful that we don't believe in Valentine's day. It sounds like a really nice holiday for those who wish to be lovish and what not, but I'm happy Meisha and I share similar views when it comes to such things.

I'm happy that we went to 25 Main for dinner on Saturday. It sounded like a lot of places were really packed on Valentines. We didn't have to wait to order or to sit. Good food. Once again. Not so good coffee this time. Um... don't have Callie make your coffee. I don't think she knows how. Maybe because she doesn't drink it. I don't know.

I'm thankful that Keith is having me design a website for the farm. I didn't realize it when it started, but this is a much bigger project than Master-Arbor. I really like the challenge it presents and I feel like they should be pretty happy with the amount I put into it once it's all done.

I'm thankful that we got to go see Coraline on Sunday. Cool movie. Cool visuals. Cool website if you click the link.

I'm thankful that Family Guy put out a new episode. I like that show. I've missed it while it was gone.

I'm thankful for doodling. On the phone. In a meeting. During intense periods of extreme boredom, etc.

I'm thankful for the internet in all it's technological glory.

I'm thankful I don't watch the shit that pours out onto news channels everyday. Seriously, how can anyone watch the news and be happy?

With that being said, I'm thankful once again for the ability to shut my office door, turn on some tunage, and NOT listen to the frickin' news.

I'm thankful Jimmy John's delivers. Seeing as how I can't really get in a car and go get lunch =) It's nice when lunch gets brought to you.

I'm thankful that I can sell cars.

I'm thankful that I've sold so many more cars than everyone else in the dealership this month. It makes people leave me alone. It's a lot easier to sell cars when people aren't bugging you about how many phone calls you've made or emails you've sent or comments you've added to cars online. I'm enjoying my month very much.

I'm thankful that I have Thursday off. I'm going to use that day to it's fullest extent.

I'm thankful that Dan moved the internet manager's meeting from Thursday to Friday for me. I really didn't want to bike in for a meeting at 8:30, bike home, bike in for a meeting at 1:00 and at 2:00 and bike home again all on my day off. What a relief!

I'm thankful that Tiffani referred Father Caldwell to me for his web designing needs. I love referrals of any sort, even if I can't help the customer :( I am also happy that I knew someone that could design the type of site Father Caldwell was looking for. At least I was able to help him out in some way.

I'm thankful that I couldn't design Father Caldwell's site. It's inspired me to push hard to learn more and learn faster. Learning is good. And being inspired to learn helps you learn gooder.

I'm thankful that I only have 3 more hours of work in this, my lovely day at work.

I think that's it for this thankful session. I sure have enjoyed typing to you. Come again soon, yo. Peace to yur Moms. I'm out.

Day Thirty Eight through Forty Three

I'm thankful that I was able to leave work on Saturday in time to deliver a car and still get to the surprise b-day party for Chris.

I'm thankful I somehow was able to sell 2 cars in a few hours on Saturday.

I'm thankful that I was able to time the delivery of the above car to be able to drive it up and be able to attend the above b-day.

I'm thankful Dallin and Nadya came to pick us up from the mall. They (and Seth) made the whole thing possible.

I'm thankful that I'm not someone who goes to the Tavernacle every weekend to drink. It seems to me that it's probably the same damn thing and the same damn songs week-in and week-out. Fun for a once-every-so-often occasion.

I'm thankful that we ordered pizza and that it was pretty damn good. I really needed food by the time it came. Meisha did too. We both hadn't eaten in a long time.

I'm thankful that Meisha gave me the opportunity to redeem myself by shaking my bootie in front of the whole bar. (Not thankful that I had to shake it, but thankful that Meisha really forgave me and moved on with the night).

I'm thankful that we were able to stay at the Hampton Inn and that we took a cab ride home. It took a lot of pressure off.

I'm thankful for the waffle I had with my continental breakfast. No peanut butter, so I tried cream cheese and syrup. Super fatty, super tasty. Good idea.

I'm thankful that we all ate at Johanna's Kitchen as I (and no one else, coincidentally) had never been there. Good down-home-cookin food.

I'm thankful that we had sufficient time to relax before getting on the bus to go home.

I'm thankful that I didn't have to drive home.

I'm thankful that Meisha and I were able to stay entertained on the bus ride home ;)

I'm thankful for our walk home from the bus. I really enjoyed it. Especially the part somewhere around Albertson's ^^

I'm thankful that I ended up being the person who sold the most cars over the weekend, hence earning another free car deal as a bonus. Hooray for me.

I'm thankful that riding my bike everywhere hasn't been as bad as I imagined it to be.

I'm thankful that Meisha and I get to ride the same bus to work in the morning. It's funny, we usually don't say much and just sit there, but I still enjoy the time.

I'm thankful that everyone is so concerned by the fact that we don't have a car, but seriously- WE ARE O.K.! The world has not ended. All 4 of our combined legs still work. We want to own the situation we're in and learn from it. I really don't want to argue with people everyday and tell them I don't need a ride. But Thanks, I know you're concerned and care, so Thanks.

I'm thankful for my day off on Wednesday.

I'm thankful that I was actually able to get everywhere I needed and run all my errands by bike/bus.

I'm thankful to have a new seat on my bike. My ass feels like I was kicked repeatedly by an agry cowboy with steel toe boots. Not a good mental picture, not a good physical feeling.

I'm thankful that I was able to find some new clothes for work. I really needed them.

I'm thankful that I got a new backpack to carry my laptop in. Biking is seriously 100 times easier now.

I'm thankful that I still had a little left on my In-N-Out gift card. I got a #2 for 89 pennies. You can't beat that. Even if the food is greasy.

I'm thankful that I was able to have lunch with Meisha. That was definitely a nice time.

I'm thankful that Meisha bought me a ceasar salad. Tasty. Cheap. Perfect.

I'm thankful that I had some time left over after all of that to fix the stereo, do some laundry and work on my Mexican Wrestler drawing. Hopefully it will be done soon *crosses fingers*

I'm thankful that I have been able to drink 64 ounces of water so far today. I hope this new biking, walking, etc. thing gets me in good shape.

I'm thankful that we finally got the nightmare of figuring out Kevan's website done. Hosting, transfering, set up emails, set up blogs, set up feeds, change I.P. addresses, yeesh!

Until another day......

Day Thirty-Three through Thirty-Seven

Life is funny. We come up with things we really really want to do for ourselves and yet, we find reasons why we don't have time or don't want to do them. I'm speaking for myself here. I love the feeling of expressing all the things that I'm thankful for on a daily basis. I love looking for those things as I go through my day. I really changes a lot of things about life when you spend the majority of it being thankful for each and every thing around you and all the things that happen to you, good or "bad".

I'm not really sure why this has been such a hard thing for me to keep up on lately and why I've come up with so many things that I've felt at the time were more important than expressing thanks. What am I trying to say? Not really sure. I'm just saying is all. Anyways, no more promises to do better. No more apologies. I will express my thankfulness when I'm compelled to do so. Hopefully that continues to be on a daily basis. I've decided that I've given my thankfulness too much structure. I think that's the problem with a lot of other things in my life too- too much structure. Thankfulness is love, and trying to put structure to love is like trying to (insert your own clever phrase here). For that matter, life is love, and too much structure reduces quality of life.

So this blog will remain. It will continue. It will just lack structure. Don't cry. I'm not. Life will be OK.

With all that being said, here are the things I can remember being thankful for this week:

I'm thankful for water as it eventually helps me get rid of headaches. Not to mention all the other wonderfully beneficial properties as well.

I'm thankful to be learning so much from just my first Photoshop tutorial. It's crazy how much that program really does if you just learn even a little about it.

I'm thankful that I've felt so optimistic over the last while. There have been a lot of challenges coming about lately and they would sure be hard to handle if I was pessimistic about them.

I'm thankful that I stumbled back upon listening to VAST. What a great band. Yes. True. Click the link. Give 'em a listen. Seriously, good. I'm pretty sure we're going to see them on May 23rd - YIPPEE!

I'm also thankful for VAST radio on Pandora. I've found some other purdy dang killer artists on there as well. Some of my favorites: Kasabian, Paradise Lost and Kent.

I'm thankful for Prosperity Paradigm. Really great book so far and I only just started chapter 2. I'm unbelievably excited to continue reading. It's crazy, this guy almost completely paraphrases my religion post from Cognitive Hallucinations, but at the same time goes into much more detail behind it. VERY interesting stuff. Plus, he unites the concepts of spirituality with money, abundance, prosperity, health etc. Now, to make the time to continue reading.....

I'm thankful that I sold 2 cars on Wednesday. They were both really easy deals, too. I will be very thankful when all my deals start to go that way every day *wink, wink to the universe*

I'm thankful that I had enough time after sales meeting on Thursday to spend some time drawing my lovely Mexican Wrestler before I had to return to work.

I'm thankful that Angelo, the repo man was such a nice guy. He even gave me a bag to put all my stuff in before he took away my Maxima. He really seemed to be sincere in feeling bad for me, which was nice. But now I don't want any one else feeling bad. Because I don't. Angelo did the job for everyone. Good work Angelo.

I'm thankful that Nissan finally took my Maxima. It's definitely a shocker and a wake up call. I'm thinking I must have needed that pretty bad.

I'm thankful that following my roughly 2 hour period of somberness after the Maxima was gone, I was over it, and happy and thankful and excited and relieved and positive. What a grand new adventure I have in store!

I'm thankful that Troy knows as much as he does about bankruptcy and collections and what not. I'm especially thankful that he was so willing to sit and help talk through things with me and give me advice.

I'm thankful that the people I work for do care enough about me to be concerned. It sucks being the pitty person when you don't really feel bad about something yourself, but I'm glad they care.

I'm thankful that Ricardo gave me a ride home.

I'm also thankful that Ricardo bought me a chicken fajita burito and a Pepsi from Albertos to make me "feel better". I guess it worked because I was hungry and my stomach felt better after I ate. I really hope people stop thinking that I should be distraught very soon.

I'm thankful that Meisha and I were able to have a calm, collected conversation regarding our financial situation. I'm also thankful that Meisha has been so supportive of me, through everything. This will be quite the challenge and her positivity and willingness to accept responsibility and consequences continues to be an inspiration to me.

I'm thankful that Dallin called and we were able to work out a plan for tomorrow. We get to go to Salt Lake after all! Woo hoo!

I'm thankful that Meisha and I get to take the same bus to work in the morning. It's weird, I'm actually looking forward to that.

I'm thankful that I was able to fix the wind noise on the Tiburon I sold. If I couldn't it would have been a pain in the ass and quite complicated.

I'm thankful that we watched X Games while eating lunch instead of the stupid MTV dating shows that are usually on.

I'm thankful that I'm going to be able to get off work by 3 tomorrow so that we can make it to Salt Lake in time. It will be nice working such a short day. It's been a while since that's happened.

I'm thankful for my current attitude about my thankful blog.

I'm thankful for my current attitude about life.

That's it. Thanks for reading. May your day be filled with .... um .... whatever you want it to be full of. If you're not sure what you want it to be full of, then may it be filled with the delicious filling from the fantastically tasty eclairs from Harmon's that I am also very thankful for.

Day Thirty Two

I'm thankful that the house was pretty much clean today so we didn't have to do too much pre-game cleaning.

I'm thankful that we found a cool TV watchin' USB device at Best Buy. It wouldn't have been too much fun to watch the Super Bowl in James' hotel room. I like my projector. And I like room to move.

I'm thankful for veggie trays from Costco. I swear I could probably live on those if I had to.

I'm thankful that we at least had a couple people come over to watch the Super Bowl.

I'm thankful for our newly found Tom Collins drink. It's pretty good and gets right to the point. X)

I'm thankful that Meisha seemed to not have too much of a boring time. I know she was bored, but at least it didn't appear unbearable.

I'm thankful that James bet on the Super Bowl. It made it a lot funner when we were actually routing for some purpose.

I'm thankful for The Office. Especially THIS EPISODE because it's an hour long and maybe I'll actually watch it later - Meisha and I fell asleep on each other within the first few minutes of trying to watch it. We must be really sleep-deprived or something. One day we'll figure that out.

I'm thankful that there are left over goodies from the game. I'm going to enjoy them over the next few days.

I'm thankful we got a pizza from Costco and not some delivery place. Seriously, SO much better.